Saturday, April 28, 2012
It's the end ?
I know I promised you so many things, and yet the chances u gave me I did not appriciate it.
Well, it is not all about your attitude, it's just I don't know how to give u the effort.
I've tried, until I gave up. You're the one breaking up with me. I asked you when u entered ur car, and yet u still doing it.
Seriously I dont know what to do and say already. I just want us to come out and solve this, that is what I want.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Truths Or Facts
I hope there is no one’s get offence after reading this. Thus,
Someone show up and fix me like a Father teaches a son.
After the incident on Sunday which I felt really sorry for her to deserve like this. I am so cruel that I treat her this way. Unconsciously speak up the bad of me when she get ill and I told her just to sleep and go for a checkup rather than tell her this “U are going to be just fine, just take some rest and continue to hang up with her until she fall asleep . Show her how u care about her and accompany her when she really need you and ONLY YOU. Isn’t it so easy? But I screw everything up again as always. After the day onwards , I told myself to be more strong and not to do something without putting efforts on it ( she tell me this too), then only I realized what I did. Oh well, I really hit myself really hard after all to make me wake up rather than continue this.” Whispering, I hope she is not going to leave me.”
Until next morning , my friend speak and give me advices.
First, I told him I got no appetite to eat and he answer me YOU DON’T BE STUPID . U CAN’T BACK ON IF U MAKE URSELF LIKE THIS. Frankly, I am shock.
When the clock tick tock until 9pm something, he bring me to a quiet place to talk to me. He told me not to be selfish( my mum and ee ling told me this before),he said to me what is my problem?... he continue, telling me to differentiate between work and personal matter. And he keep reminds me of open ur eyes when you work and plan what u should do next, continue by no one will help you once I resign, everything will be on ur own( but u’re my friend and my handphone will be 24hrs for you if u’ve matters to discuss thou). He also mention that I can really work well, but what I am lacking is effort(same goes to my personal matter).
Second, he go for my personal matter, he ask :how long I already be with her… I answer: 1 year plus… and then he tap my shoulder, ah Chun ahh, 1 year past already and you will be more understand her(liao kai) than other peoples beside her parents. He continue again, you are not 12 yrs old kid , u ‘re 21 already, stop acting like 12 yrs old kid. Grow up boy. Your salary isn’t enough for you after the deduction of epf and socso. But u still manage to bought a car for both of you and it is second used of car(and I seldom see youngster nwdays want to drive a 2nd hand car). And you still dare to that car even though u know it is hard for you. But what u do is for u both.( his face show me like he is so surprise). Since we got to hook up with our duties, our conversation stop and he ask me to think properly.
To my babe ( Miss Chow Ee Ling),
Now I realized everything, every single thing, when u scold me and what we argue always. It not all about you but it is all about me, im the one that need to be change and fix. I told you I will fix myself, and if I were, this thing wont happen. Im sorry to you same goes to myself. Could you give me another chance ? ( even this is the 4th time). And and and, my hot temper also need to overcome because it is also one of it causes that bring me into the argument. I now provide you what I can and show you how I improve day by day. I wont disappointed you again. And yup I did not smoke anymore because I want to spend more time with you rather than burning every seconds of my life. It is so meaningful to be with you afterall and you are my special one and only one. *Hugsss*
It is time to go bed , the clock show 2.22am..
End of conversation.
(Eugene the big stomach)
Someone show up and fix me like a Father teaches a son.
After the incident on Sunday which I felt really sorry for her to deserve like this. I am so cruel that I treat her this way. Unconsciously speak up the bad of me when she get ill and I told her just to sleep and go for a checkup rather than tell her this “U are going to be just fine, just take some rest and continue to hang up with her until she fall asleep . Show her how u care about her and accompany her when she really need you and ONLY YOU. Isn’t it so easy? But I screw everything up again as always. After the day onwards , I told myself to be more strong and not to do something without putting efforts on it ( she tell me this too), then only I realized what I did. Oh well, I really hit myself really hard after all to make me wake up rather than continue this.” Whispering, I hope she is not going to leave me.”
Until next morning , my friend speak and give me advices.
First, I told him I got no appetite to eat and he answer me YOU DON’T BE STUPID . U CAN’T BACK ON IF U MAKE URSELF LIKE THIS. Frankly, I am shock.
When the clock tick tock until 9pm something, he bring me to a quiet place to talk to me. He told me not to be selfish( my mum and ee ling told me this before),he said to me what is my problem?... he continue, telling me to differentiate between work and personal matter. And he keep reminds me of open ur eyes when you work and plan what u should do next, continue by no one will help you once I resign, everything will be on ur own( but u’re my friend and my handphone will be 24hrs for you if u’ve matters to discuss thou). He also mention that I can really work well, but what I am lacking is effort(same goes to my personal matter).
Second, he go for my personal matter, he ask :how long I already be with her… I answer: 1 year plus… and then he tap my shoulder, ah Chun ahh, 1 year past already and you will be more understand her(liao kai) than other peoples beside her parents. He continue again, you are not 12 yrs old kid , u ‘re 21 already, stop acting like 12 yrs old kid. Grow up boy. Your salary isn’t enough for you after the deduction of epf and socso. But u still manage to bought a car for both of you and it is second used of car(and I seldom see youngster nwdays want to drive a 2nd hand car). And you still dare to that car even though u know it is hard for you. But what u do is for u both.( his face show me like he is so surprise). Since we got to hook up with our duties, our conversation stop and he ask me to think properly.
To my babe ( Miss Chow Ee Ling),
Now I realized everything, every single thing, when u scold me and what we argue always. It not all about you but it is all about me, im the one that need to be change and fix. I told you I will fix myself, and if I were, this thing wont happen. Im sorry to you same goes to myself. Could you give me another chance ? ( even this is the 4th time). And and and, my hot temper also need to overcome because it is also one of it causes that bring me into the argument. I now provide you what I can and show you how I improve day by day. I wont disappointed you again. And yup I did not smoke anymore because I want to spend more time with you rather than burning every seconds of my life. It is so meaningful to be with you afterall and you are my special one and only one. *Hugsss*
It is time to go bed , the clock show 2.22am..
End of conversation.
(Eugene the big stomach)
Friday, March 2, 2012
Mistake...
today is the day i really screw up... I blamed her, and everytime i did nt notice that i had hurt her.. And yet i ask her to forgive me... Well, this time even if she forgive me, i wont forgive myself too... I really felt im a foolish guy that she had met... I made her dissapointed... Sad~
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Taking All Back
It hurts when you never understand me.
It hurts when you didn't know what's wrong everytime.
It hurts when you shouted at me.
It hurts even more to see you hurting and crying.
It hurts the most when I'm the one who hurt you.
I seriously wanna take back all my harsh words.
I'm sorry... <333
*T^T Wuwu~ Sob Sobsss...*
Your love, ee ling
**End**
It hurts when you didn't know what's wrong everytime.
It hurts when you shouted at me.
It hurts even more to see you hurting and crying.
It hurts the most when I'm the one who hurt you.
I seriously wanna take back all my harsh words.
I'm sorry... <333
*T^T Wuwu~ Sob Sobsss...*
Your love, ee ling
**End**
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Just about us~~
3months Anniversary was so perfect.
We meet in nowhere, the road that spotted us was so bright, relying on each others is so greatful. If I did not met you, I cant imagine what I am now~
Once you entered into my life, everything had changed. Yes, I am afraid of losing you~ I'll just want you tell me that " you're save in my heart". I'll wait till you tell me this~
When I were to sit alone in the middle of the night, the picture of you always appeared in-front of me which made me missed you so badly. First of all, what I were to do is, calm myself down, get a picture of your smiling face ^o^...
The person that I want to see everyday is you. Only you~
Twinkle twinkle little star~~
We meet in nowhere, the road that spotted us was so bright, relying on each others is so greatful. If I did not met you, I cant imagine what I am now~
Once you entered into my life, everything had changed. Yes, I am afraid of losing you~ I'll just want you tell me that " you're save in my heart". I'll wait till you tell me this~
When I were to sit alone in the middle of the night, the picture of you always appeared in-front of me which made me missed you so badly. First of all, what I were to do is, calm myself down, get a picture of your smiling face ^o^...
The person that I want to see everyday is you. Only you~
Twinkle twinkle little star~~
Thursday, May 5, 2011
I am late ~~ hehehe
Just went back home and settle everything.
And thinking of blog-ing xP...
yesterday was our 2nd month Anniversary~ <333
Love you babe~~
It had been a long time, since i saw u so happy~~ Keep it up~
There is still a long way to go between us~ I promise i will cheer u up and guide you through the path with my passion~
Even-though today , we just see each other for 1 hour ... I still so happy~~ \\^o^//
I hate saying good-bye to you when the dark cloud takes place. sobs....
Cherish and love you as always,
Eugene~
And thinking of blog-ing xP...
yesterday was our 2nd month Anniversary~ <333
Love you babe~~
It had been a long time, since i saw u so happy~~ Keep it up~
There is still a long way to go between us~ I promise i will cheer u up and guide you through the path with my passion~
Even-though today , we just see each other for 1 hour ... I still so happy~~ \\^o^//
I hate saying good-bye to you when the dark cloud takes place. sobs....
Cherish and love you as always,
Eugene~
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